I got this from a friend and I would recommend you to read this. It's nice and true. Have fun reading.
I have never met a man who didn't want to be loved. But I have seldom
met a man who didn't fear marriage. Something about the closure seems
constricting, not enabling. Marriage seems easier to understand for what
it cuts out of our lives than for what it makes possible within our
When I was younger this fear immobilized me. I did not want to make a
mistake. I saw my friends get married for reasons of
social acceptability, or sexual fever, or just because they thought
it was the logical thing to do. Then I watched, as they and their
partners became embittered and petty in their dealings with each other.
I looked at older couples and saw, at be! st, mutual toleration of each
other. I imagined a lifetime of loveless nights and bickering days and
could not imagine subjecting myself or someone else to such a fate.
And yet, on rare occasions, I would see old couples who somehow seemed
to glow in each other's presence. They seemed really in love, not just
dependent upon each other and tolerant of each other's foibles.
It was an astounding sight, and it seemed impossible. How, I asked
myself, can they have survived so many years of sameness, so much
irritation at the others habits? What keeps love alive in them, when
most of us seem unable to even stay together, much less love each other?
The central secret seems to be in choosing well. There is something to
the claim of fundamental compatibility. Good people can create a bad
relationship, even though they both dearly want the relationship to
succeed. It is important to find someone with whom you can create a
good relationship from the outset. Unfortunately, it is hard to
see clearly in the early stages.
Sexual hunger draws you to each other and colors the way you see
yourselves together. It blinds you to the thousands of little things by
which relationships eventually survive or fail. You need to find a way
to see beyond this initial overwhelming sexual fascination. Some people
choose to involve themselves sexually and ride out the most heated
period of sexual attraction in order to see what is on the other side.
This can work, but it can also leave a trail of wounded hearts. Others
deny the sexual side altogether in an attempt to get to know each other
apart from their sexuality. But they cannot see clearly, because the
presence of unfulfilled sexual desire looms so large that it keeps them
from having any normal perception of what life would be like together.
The truly lucky people are the ones who manage to become long-time
friends before they realize they are attracted to each other. They get
to know each other's laughs, passions, sadness, and fears. They see each
other at their worst and at their best. They share time together before
they get swept up into the entangling intimacy of their sexuality.
This is the ideal, but not often possible. If you fall under the spell
of your sexual attraction immediately, you need to look beyond it for
other keys to compatibility. One of these is laughter. Laughter tells
you how much you will enjoy each others company over the long term.
If your laughter together is good and healthy, and not at the expense of
others, then you have a healthy relationship to the world. Laughter is
the child of surprise. If you can make each other laugh, you can always
surprise each other. And if you can always surprise each other, you can
always keep the world around you new.
Beware of a relationship in which there is no laughter. Even the most
intimate relationships based only on seriousness have a tendency to turn
sour. Over time, sharing a common serious viewpoint on the world tends
to turn you against those who do not share the same viewpoint, and your
relationship can become based on being critical together.
After laughter, look for a partner who deals with the world in a way you
respect. When two people first get together, they tend to see their
relationship as existing only in the space between the two of them. They
find each other endlessly fascinating, and the overwhelming power of the
emotions they are sharing obscures the outside world. As the
relationship ages and grows, the outside world becomes important again.
If your partner treats people or circumstances in a way you can't
accept, you will inevitably come to grief.Look ! at the way she cares
for others and deals with the daily affairs of life. If that makes you
love her more, your love will grow. If it does not, be careful. If you
do not respect the way you each deal with the world around you,
eventually the two of you will not respect each other.
Look also at how your partner confronts the mysteries of life. We live
on the cusp of poetry and practicality, and the real life of the heart
resides in the poetic. If one of you is deeply affected by the mystery
of the unseen in life and relationships, while the other is drawn only
to the literal and the practical, you must take care that the distance
does not become an unbridgeable gap that leaves you each feeling
isolated and misunderstood.
There are many other keys, but you must find them by yourself. We all
have unchangeable parts of our hearts that we will not betray and
private commitments to a vision of life that we will not deny. If you
fall in love with someone who cannot nourish those inviolable parts of
you, or if you cannot nourish them in her, you will find yourselves
growing further apart until you live in separate worlds where you share
the business of life, but never touch each other where the heart lives
and dreams. From there it is only a small leap to the cataloging of
petty hurts a! nd daily failures that leaves so many couples bitter and
unsatisfied with their mates.
So choose carefully and well. If you do, you will have chosen a partner
with whom you can grow, and then the real miracle of marriage cantake
place in your hearts. I pick my words carefully when I speak of a
miracle. But I think it is not too strong a word. There is a miracle in
marriage. It is called transformation. Transformation is one of the most
common events of nature. The seed becomes the flower. The cocoon becomes
the butterfly. Winter becomes spring and love becomes a child. We never
question these, because we see them around us every day. To us they are
not miracles, though if we did not know them they would be impossible to
Marriage is a transformation we choose to make. Our love is planted like
a seed, and in time it begins to flower. We cannot know the flower that
will blossom, but we can be sure that a bloom will come.
If you have chosen carefully and wisely, the bloom will be good. If you
have chosen poorly or for the wrong reason, the bloom will be flawed.
We are quite willing to accept the reality of negative transformation in
a marriage. It was negative transformation that always had me terrified
of the bitter marriages that I feared when I was younger. It never
occurred to me to question the dark miracle that transformed love into
harshness and bitterness. Yet I was unable to accept the possibility
that the first heat of love could be transformed into something positive
that was actually deeper and more meaningful than the heat of fresh
passion. All I could believe in was the power of this passion and the
fear that when it cooled I would be left with something lesser and
But there is positive transformation as well. Like
negative transformation, it results from a slow accretion of
little things. But instead of death by a thousand blows, it is growth by
a thousand touches of love. Two histories intermingle. Two separate
beings, two separate presence, two separate consciousness come together
and share a view of life that passes before them. They remain separate,
but they also become one. There is an expansion of awareness, not a
closure! and a constriction, as I had once feared. This is not to say
that there is not tension and there are not traps. Tension and traps are
part of every choice of life, from celibate to monogamous to having
multiple lovers. Each choice contains within it the lingering doubt that
the road not taken somehow more fruitful and exciting, and each becomes
dulled to the richness that it alone contains.
But only marriage allows life to deepen and expand and be leavened by
the knowledge that two have chosen, against all odds, to become one.
Those who live together without marriage can know the pleasure of shared
company, but there is a specific gravity in the marriage commitment that
deepens that experience into something richer and more complex.
So do not fear marriage, just as you should not rush into it for the
wrong reasons. It is an act of faith and it contains within it the power
of transformation. If you believe in your heart that you have found
someone with whom you are able to grow, if you have sufficient faith
that you can resist the endless attraction of the road not taken and the
partner not chosen, if you have the strength of heart to embrace the
cycles and seasons that your love will experience, then you may be ready
to seek the miracle that marriage offers. If not, then wait. The easy
grace ! of a marriage well made is worth your patience. When the time
comes, a thousand flowers will bloom...endlessly.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
At last I was able to do some cleaning today. Last weekend was just busy and not staying at home. We been out most of the day and when we're home I need to be with Maddie. Our priority in life. So, I was just finishing my laundry. Need to fold it though and then do cooking for dinner. Got to go.
Sunday, July 19, 2009
Once again, Sunday's here and tomorrow is going to be a work day for hubby. The last day of the week usually is not so fun thinking that you need to work tomorrow. We thought of going to the mountain today but the weather is not that great and I've heard from a friend the the elevation out there can make your baby vomit. I don't want that to happen to Maddie. We thought of going to Mt. Evans but it's too hight 14,000feet in elevation. Maybe will plan something else. I need to clean the house also if I have time.
Friday, July 17, 2009
It's Friday once again. A time to relax for hubby and spend with Maddie. I always look forward to the weekend and the off Friday for hubby. I like having him around the house and spending time with him. We don't usually do a lot of things just hanging around here or watching a movie. Most of the time we go out to the store or the mall just to stroll around but it felt relaxing. Most often we do eat out on the weekend and that's why I like it too. In fact tomorrow we are going to eat in a buffet place again. What a wondeful day and life to live.
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
Monday, July 13, 2009
I would certainly like to do household chores on the weekend specially huby is here to help watch Maddie but it never happen. He is always busy and we are always out on the weekend. By the time we are at home I have to feed Maddie or put her to bed. So, I never get into cleaning or doing laundry. So, tday being Monday I have to do household chores and I think I like it because I don't have to tell hubby to watch Maddie. I just wait until she sleep or put her in a walker and start doing chores. She likes following me around the house. That's good too.
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Hubby and I ate at Great Wall buffet because I was really craving for some chinese food. It's been a while since I ate one because as much as possible hubby doens't want to eat chinese. He said it's too salty and fatty but I was able to convince him and I was so happy we went. I was so full. I ate a lot of seafood, shrimp and clamps shell. For sure I'll be back later in time. Also a friend invited me to go to Colorado Spring to eat in a chinese buffet over there. She said that there's a good chinese buffet in there that has leg crabs with lot's of food choices. I wish I can go. Let's see.
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Hubby told me that this coming July 18 and 19 is a free weekend again to go to sme National Park. If you like to have a free entrance then it might be the right time to go see the Rocky Mountain National park this weekend. Hubby said that we are going and I forgot that my friend invited me for a house warming that time. Let's see what happens.
Saturday, July 4, 2009
Happy Independence day America. Today, was a busy day because early in the morning hubby has to drive her mom and sister to the airport. After that, we ate our BBQ and walk outside with Maddie just to see what is happening outside. Nothing much though a lot of cars started parking in the parking lot outside our community. They usually park there to see the fireworks later in the golf course area. For us, we just have to stay at home and watch the fireworks in the comfort of our master's bedroom. You can see everything in there up high. Sometimes the bang is so loud and scary. No wonder Maddie didn't like it. Have a wonderful fourth of July guys. Enjoy your holiday.
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Oh my, time flies so fast and Maddie just turn eight months. She is getting bigger everyday. Thanks God for the blessings and good health. Anyway, I remember she was just a baby and now she can crawl and stand. Later on without realizing she is going to be walking and asking lot's of questions and of course things. Here I come daddy, buy me this and buy me that. Well, I'm so happy I am there always with her developments. I didn't regret not working just caring for my precious little Maddie.